我仰面躺下，你手中有把尖刀

我柔软的腹部，血肉轻抚它的刃锋

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我祈祷你的手指滑落

摩擦

我的内里

你的手刚厉而无情

它们攥着我的内脏

你将全身的重量倚在我身上

压迫着我的肺

我疲惫的脸1沐浴在你的光中

依旧温暖

我看见你翻找时挺翘的鼻梁

你的一缕头发拂过我的面庞

你挖出我的心时我很满足

你的手指在它的嫩肉上深入时我很满足

血从你爱人的喉咙滴落时

我很满足

看着你的脚步悄无声息地追随她

离开

我很满足。

我还记得你的笑容

我几乎再次感受到了心跳。

Footnotes

1. 译注：原文是blue face，这可能是化用了blue in the face，故有此译。

I lay down on my back, knife in your hands

My stomach is so soft, flesh and blood caressing the blade

Praying your fingers will slip

And brush

Inside of me

Your hands are hard and unforgiving

As they grip my insides

You're leaning all your weight on me

Crushing my lungs

My blue face stays warm

Basking in your light

I can see that gorgeous curve of your nose as you rummage around

A lock of your hair brushes my face

And I am content as you rip out my heart

I am content as your fingers dig into its tender meat

I am content to watch

as the blood drips down the throat of your lover

As I see your feet silently stalk behind her

Away

I am content.

I remember how you laughed

And I can almost feel my heart throb again.